Pissing Match With All of Myselfs

We also get addicted to people/places/things that BRING the pain. The darkness that exists within me WANTS me to be miserable, WANTS me to drown, WANTS me to disappear. I’m an emotional masochist bc of it. #addicted #masochist #emotional #darkness #mentalhealth #PTSD #bipolarII #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #relapseVSrecovery #depressed #anxiety #mooddisorder

We also get addicted to people/places/things that BRING the pain. The darkness that exists within me WANTS me to be miserable, WANTS me to drown, WANTS me to disappear. I’m an emotional masochist bc of it. #addicted #masochist #emotional #darkness #mentalhealth #PTSD #bipolarII #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #relapseVSrecovery #depressed #anxiety #mooddisorder

Fuck. Why does it matter?! #triggered #PTSD

Fuck. Why does it matter?! #triggered #PTSD

I’m trying… #mentalhealth #recovery #trying #fightingback #letgo #PTSD #deepbreath #breakyostigma #trust

I’m trying… #mentalhealth #recovery #trying #fightingback #letgo #PTSD #deepbreath #breakyostigma #trust

What if it doesn’t? My mind is a fickle place. 😔 #PTSD #bipolarII #anxiety #relapseVSrecovery #triggered #mentalhealth #twloha

What if it doesn’t? My mind is a fickle place. 😔 #PTSD #bipolarII #anxiety #relapseVSrecovery #triggered #mentalhealth #twloha

I’m struggling with a #trauma issue. It stems from my first relationship and the traumatic breakup that I endured. It took two years and a violent fall down the rabbit hole of #selfharm and  #suicidalideations. I was 17 and this was also when my #bipolarII started presenting as well as my #borderlinepersonalitydisorder. #PTSD is no joke and it creeps up when you least expect it to. I’ve been in #recovery for a long time and some days I still struggle like I’ve never spent a moment trying to get better. In the last week I’ve become irrevocably aware of a trauma that I never dealt with and now it’s dealing with me. I didn’t even know this issue was an issue until BAM! It made itself known. This is my first post for this new IG account. This is another outlet for me to deal with my shit. #relapse and #recovery are separated by a fine line in my head and I’m trying to walk steady.

I’m struggling with a #trauma issue. It stems from my first relationship and the traumatic breakup that I endured. It took two years and a violent fall down the rabbit hole of #selfharm and #suicidalideations. I was 17 and this was also when my #bipolarII started presenting as well as my #borderlinepersonalitydisorder. #PTSD is no joke and it creeps up when you least expect it to. I’ve been in #recovery for a long time and some days I still struggle like I’ve never spent a moment trying to get better. In the last week I’ve become irrevocably aware of a trauma that I never dealt with and now it’s dealing with me. I didn’t even know this issue was an issue until BAM! It made itself known. This is my first post for this new IG account. This is another outlet for me to deal with my shit. #relapse and #recovery are separated by a fine line in my head and I’m trying to walk steady.

…I’m trying. I’m fighting. Some things come careening at you so hard and so fast that you didn’t even know it existed until it knocked you out. When you’re laid out from a force that is bigger than you…you realize you never won the battle; you never dealt with it so eventually it will deal with you.

…I’m trying. I’m fighting. Some things come careening at you so hard and so fast that you didn’t even know it existed until it knocked you out. When you’re laid out from a force that is bigger than you…you realize you never won the battle; you never dealt with it so eventually it will deal with you.

carry-on-my-wayward-butt:

volunruud:

every time i do it makes me laugh


why did you do this

Fuck.

carry-on-my-wayward-butt:

volunruud:

every time i do it makes me laugh

why did you do this

Fuck.

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notenoughtosurvive:

unamusedsloth:

Nude Portraits series by photographer Trevor Christensen

This is my new favorite thing

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epic-humor:

I accept nothing


Me.

epic-humor:

I accept nothing

Me.

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unwinona:

urulokid:

tico-taco-ra-ra-ra:

urulokid:

jellybaby74:

urulokid:

zionicbond:

urulokid:

chibitamichan:

urulokid:

Yeah I’m totally elsa kids come on over

I can’t breathe, this is so friggin cute

Like you don’t understand okay I was trapped for an hour on the second floor of the con with hundreds of children and their parents because everyone thought I was Elsa

Am I the only one who thinks she looks like the khaleesi like The mother of dragons?

I was cosplaying dany I was mistaken for Elsa and wound up at a nine yr old girls birthday party this was the best day of my life

I thought she was Kalesi…

YES I WAS COSPLAYING KHALEESI

I WAS HOWEVER MISTAKEN ON AN ENORMOUS SCALE FOR ELSA OF ARENDELLE BY HUNDREDS OF SMALL CHILDREN AND THEIR MOTHERS

well you didnt have to use caps lock…

I AM DAENERYS STORMBORN, THE UNBURNT, OF THE HOUSE TARGARYEN, FIRST OF MY NAME; QUEEN OF MEEREEN; QUEEN OF THE ANDALS, THE RHYNAR, AND THE FIRST MEN; LADY REGNANT OF THE SEVEN KINGDOMS, PROTECTOR OF THE REALM, KHALEESI OF THE GREAT GRASS SEA, BREAKER OF CHAINS, AND MOTHER OF DRAGONS 

AND I WILL USE CAPS LOCK IF I SO PLEASE

LET IT GO

LET IT GOOOOOOO

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